Akashe agun Jalie debo..
Akashe agun jalie debo… I will light fire in the sky
Did you ever stand in front of light and when you look back you can not see your shadow? It’s like the light is just penetrating your entity like you are nothing in this universe.
Today the sky was extremely blue. From violate to indigo to blue with red, golden yellow to scarlet every shades and tints was there. Its so instance that I can’t even breath this much blue. And suddenly with that a deep strange sadness came upon me. But I was happy because I know with all the sadness, sorrows and every little bit pain will go away because I am beneath this vast sky.
For last 7 days I’m within the walls of my little two room apartment. Being sick is a bad thing. With the pain and the sleepless nights my horizons were getting dark every moment. But now standing on top of 7 story building I think it was not a bad thing. Because with out the darkness you can not find the light. And strangely I find it true again. This sky, clouds and everything so beautiful, so simple. I can see peoples are waking in the road, little children are playing in the field and some songs from a guitar with a somky jazz voice. Its all so dramatic from here. It’s like I’m watching a theatre, just its a very true reality.
May be we can not understand this feeling when we are in the same plane in the world. Walking in the same road with everyone else. And now I’m 70 feet above the ground and this beauty revealed in front of me. I’m jealous of you God. It’s just me 70 feet above with a eye which vision is not even 20/20. It must be a great view up there.
In my little life i did see a lot of sunsets. From the roof of my Old home in Dinajpur me and my elder sister Mareen used to see every sunset of Autumn. Long ago that was. After the rain had gone only with the clouds with thousand colours we saw the sunsets. But every time it is different from others. Today suddenly it seems like a very similar sunsets not from that distance past. Then I remember its just the clouds. Stretching my arms out I just want to block the sun light and tries to see the clouds fading away.
I can see strange floaters in side my eyes. But I kept looking to the sun with golden red hue and gradually all the floaters are settled down with all my blue sadness that came to me just a moment ago. And I know they will fade with this sun. With the light of the day they will go away in the darkness.
I love this city. I don’t know why but I love this place. All the building in the horizon are now painted with red and black. It’s time to go. I wish my sunshine was here with me. Holding my hand and we would say goodbye to the leaving daylight together. Don’t you worry my dear.. We will have our time….
Ami akashe agun jalie debo,
Prodip hobo gohin bone,
Tomar shopno puron korbo apon mone,
Ar vhalobashbo tomae boro bechi kore,
Boro beshi beshi beshi kore…
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